spring break

So it's my Spring Break (ha ha) and I had clinicals today. I had a few students that needed to do a make-up day and a few others that said they'd come this week if they could miss the last week of clinicals. 7 of the 10 came, so it was well worth it. It doesn't bother me because I knew I wasn't really going to have a spring break anyhow. I've got tons of grading to catch up on, projects to try and get ahead on, homework to do (unfortunately, my homework didn't stop just cause it's spring break) and my house is slowing getting dirtier and dirtier. There always seem to be so much to do and little or no time to do it. 

I can't believe that school is almost over for the semester! I can't wait for summer to get here so I can focus on just work and home. I've been really conflicted today because I'm not sure if I want to teach full-time after I get my MSN. I love teaching, but I have this sinking feeling that if I start teaching full-time, I am not going keep working as a nurse very long. I can't stop working as a nurse yet. I'm just not ready to give it up to be a teacher full-time. I love being a nurse too much. But I don't really want to give up teaching yet either. What to do?

After talking with Kyle, he helped me realize that no-one is making me chose one or the other. There's no rule that I have to give up one to work the other full-time. I can work part-time at teaching and as a nurse. He also helped me remember that I do need to keep my foot in the door at Weber because they have been great to me so far and when I am ready to teach full-time, I want to teach for them. I don't feel completely relieved because I will still have to make the choice someday; but perhaps when that day comes, I'll be ready to choose.