heartache replaced by nerves...

note: for this post to make sense, please see previous "heartache" posts and updates

The Good News:

Today I filled out the application for Maxim. It was an "application" since I technically have to re-apply for my current job when they take over the contract. They have assured me that they are not going to make me re-interview for it and that I'm just going through all of the necessary steps to become a Maxim employee.

The Bad News:

I will have to take a cut in pay. Maxim underbid the current contract, so to keep within their bid, we are all taking an 8% cut in pay. It's bittersweet for me. I definitely didn't want a pay cut, but I still get to keep a job I absolutely adore. Plus, even with the cut, I'll still be making almost $6/hour more than I did at the hospital (and I really hated that job!). I am frustrated by it, but it won't stop me from keeping this job!

So for now, my heartache has been replaced by nerves. Now I'm nervous about this new company and "new job". I don't know how they will be to work with and I hate all of the inevitable change that's coming (new paperwork, new protocols, new physicians/PA's/NP's). I still don't feel at ease, my stomach is still in knots, I'm still not sleeping well at all and I'm still very temperamental and snippy. I probably won't feel better until I'm truly hired and still working after June 30th. 

I am supposed to meet with a guy from Maxim next week for further discussions and then we head on vacation for a bit. I hope all goes well next week so I can enjoy my vacation a little...